visit me in my dreams anymore.
Life is so funny. I was literally at a place where I had been rejected by every agency and I told my friend that I didn’t think the “modeling thing” was for me. I was about to quit my dream and do something practical. My back up plan…a career as a graphic designer, full time and no BS. Thank God for being a friend and an answer to my prayers.
Shortly after I stopped trying to do things my way and allowed God to take over. I got an agency, then comes my commercial. LOOK AT GOD! There is beauty in the struggle. It made everything worth it. It’s not over by a long shot, but it fueled my fire. I got to eat my commercial principal sandwich! I am grateful because I could still be in that place trying to figure out what to do with my life. I am grateful for all my supportive friends who push me to be better when I want to give up.
An older gentlemen, who is an actor, gave me some great advice. He told me to know that what’s meant to happen will happen. Don’t fret about parts or roles that you don’t get because those weren’t for you. What God has for you is for you. 😉
I am terrified…TERRIFIED! I am in a place where I can finally pursue something wholeheartedly and that scares me. Before, I always could say its my job or circumstance that’s hindering me. There was always an excuse, but now I don’t have a valid one.
I’ve been giving plenty of signs that this is right, but nonetheless, I am scared. I can’t and won’t allow my fear to stop me…not this time. I will not give fear that much power over my life. I will push through…
I had such a beautiful dream this morning. I dreamed of my aunt(deceased). We were at her home to which she brought presents and cake for me. She was known for her delicious cake.
I opened my box of presents and noticed that they ranged from old to new. For example, there was an old cordless phone and a new leather jacket. It looked like she gave me everything that she had wanted to over the years…the dream was such a beautiful way for God to say he restores the years.